Showing posts with label good/bad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label good/bad. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Remembering Blessings

He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy. -- Job 8:21 (NIV)

On my desk at work is one of those verse-a-day calendars that you can reuse from year to year. I bought it when I started working because I wanted to have something to help re-center my thoughts and meditate on throughout the day, especially working in a secular environment. Up until a few years ago, working in Christian businesses was all I knew, and this transition into secular employment has been both exciting and challenging.

The past two and a half years haven't been the easiest transition for me. Struggling to fit in and find my place in a new town and congregation has been very challenging, and not without tears of frustration many times. Moving to a community that, for the most part, has a very small-town, closed community mindset often leaves me feeling like I'm on the outside looking in. Of the friends I've been blessed with here, most of them are transplants themselves, which provides a great community of shared experiences and companionship. I cherish each and every friendship, and the richness they bring to my own life.

We aren't promised days, months, or years without struggles and heartbreak. Yet God promises to work all things for good (Romans 8:28) for those who trust in Him. What comfort this provides during seasons where everything seems upside down and "normal" is no longer peaceful.

In spite of all these stresses and frustrations (sometimes on a daily basis), we are blessed. This verse from Job reminds me that in the midst of all the stress, frustration, worry, heartbreak, and yes, even hopelessness, the Lord still fills our mouths with laughter, still blesses us daily and provides reasons to shout for joy. They may not be blessings we see immediately; we may not even realize them for years to come. But still our Lord daily and richly cares for us, providing everything we need to support this body and life.


Sing praise to God, the highest good,
The author of creation,
The God of love who understood
Our need for His salvation.
With healing balm our souls He fills
And ev'ry faithless murmur stills: 
To God all praise and glory!
(LSB 819:1)

Thursday, January 30, 2014

A New Year, and Some New Goals...

Hard to believe January is almost over. Every year I always seem optimistic that things will magically become new, and we can start over with a clean slate on January 1. Problems, stresses, issues, and drama from 2013 will magically disappear when the clock strikes midnight, right?? Oh, how I wish this was true!

I am, and always have been, a very emotional person. I rejoice with others, I mourn with them. When life throws my friends challenges, I empathize and sympathize with them. I pray for them.

But I'm not always such a great friend to myself. And that's a pretty hard truth to swallow. I would rather blame myself for what goes wrong, and beat myself up about it. I always have. Not an easy habit to break, is it?

2013 was a year full of new beginnings, challenges, leaps of faith, disappointments, and intense stress. Trust me when I say I'm not sorry to leave it behind.

Yet 2014 has started out with its fair share of problems. Lingering drama and stress from the previous year has carried over, health issues have manifested (no doubt in part from the lingering drama and stress), and I'm not sure how much longer I can tread water like this.

Let's be realistic. There is no such thing as a perfect year. I may not have a "good" year this year, but that doesn't mean I can't try. Now, I'm not one to normally make New Years Resolutions. But in light of how much the drama and stress has begun to affect me in negative ways, I'm making a few goals this year. Fairly open-ended and broad, I'm not going to tell myself I have to reach them in any specific way. They're just things I'm going to focus on and keep in mind as we take the bull by the horns.

- Destress (Kind of speaks for itself, don't you think?)
- Declutter (living in a tiny apartment means clutter is a constant. ugh)
- Organize (this goes along with decluttering. whether it's re-organizing my kitchen cabinets or a new method for filing paperwork, little things count.)
- Focus on the positives (THIS. Perhaps it's the hardest for me to do, especially when things are very stressful and uncertain. How often do the negatives waaay overshadow the positives? Looking for the positives is so important.)

This year, I also want to challenge myself outside my comfort zone a little more. I've got a few ideas already, and I'm currently pursuing some of them.

Of course, I'm sure crafting will play a significant role in many of these goals, and potentially contribute to the roots of their problems (craft rooms, or lack thereof, can get so disorganized, can't they?). Here's to a better, healthier, new year!


Thursday, September 27, 2012

One of those days.

Today was one of those days. You know, the ones where you don't have motivation to accomplish anything, even though there are things you need to get done? Yeah. That was today. {I'll be honest, I have these days more often than I care to admit, but not often enough that I'm concerned there's something going on...}

For me, this is part of staying home, being a housewife, and taking online classes. It's so easy to stay in my pajamas until the afternoon, piddle around, and before I know it, most of the day is gone and I have little to show for it. Oops. {On the other hand, there are also many perks to this season of life.} Of course, it's second nature to be my own worst enemy and biggest critic, allowing the guilt to creep in all too easily. And so we receive grace and forgiveness from the Lord.

Today, I've needed an extra helping of those two gifts, not to deal with others, but with myself. Grace and forgiveness to realize it's ok to not be as ridiculously busy as the rest of the week. Grace and forgiveness to move past my insecurities and worries and rejoice in the blessings of today. Blessings that come in disguise, and that smack me in the face.

-- A random text from a friend asking my advice on a purchase.
-- Suggestions from friends for a final project topic. {The assignment currently plaguing my mind. Another post for another day.}
-- A brief walk to run some errands that turned into a chance to clear my head.
-- My husband bringing home dinner, with options!, because I hadn't the mental energy to come up with a supper plan of any substance on such a busy night.
-- A quick phone call home during a culinary crisis that led to a cathartic chat with three different family members. {My brother actually wanted to talk to me. What?! Crazy!}
-- Fuzzy polka dot socks, a silly plastic Halloween wine glass, and the anniversary issue of Vogue Knitting.
-- Baking apple oat muffins and enjoying a mug of tea at the end of the day.

So yes, today was one of those days. We all have them. Days of blah and meh. Days of grace and forgiveness. Days of blessings. And the promise of tomorrow.

"The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." - Lamentations 3:22-23

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Busy, busy day!

Today has been ridiculously busy. Normally I don't feel like I've accomplished enough in a day, even if I really have. Today, I'm definitely feeling accomplished, even though I know I still have chores on my to-do list to prepare for this weekend. My in-laws are coming to visit for the weekend, and I've been busy getting the apartment cleaned and in company shape. Of course, D thinks I'm overdoing it... I just say he doesn't really understand what goes through women's minds when we're expecting company. Thankfully, there's only a few things left on the list for tomorrow! :)

Today, I got my hair cut (and spent a lovely time with my friend and stylist), baked two batches of cookies, did four loads of laundry, grocery shopped, donated some food to the area food pantry, put up some Memorial Day decorations, and wrapped a few presents for this weekend. Did I mention I also had car trouble today? Looks like it might need to spend a few days in the hospital. :/

Tonight's agenda? Finish cutting out and preparing the banners that our confirmands will put together on Saturday in preparation for their Confirmation on Sunday. (Which is also Pentecost! Hello busy weekend!)

I'm also enjoying a lovely Schlafly Porter, compliments of my dad and brother-the-younger.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Weekend Recap

M has come and gone, and it was a delightful weekend.

Saturday, M arrived and I made this chili for lunch! Yummy, sweet, and just a touch of spicy. We then ventured out to Knob Noster to visit this cute little store called Whimsy Lane. Handmade items, Missouri products, cute little things you just want to decorate your house with! I picked up a few things for my swap partner (squee! so excited about that!!), and a pair of toaster tongs (seriously, one of the best things invented. ever.), a dishtowel with a sheep embroidered on it, and some yummy smelling soaps that M and I split. Blackberry vanilla musk and jasmine vanilla. What a treat. :) We also stopped at the Dutch Country bulk foods store to browse a bit. We didn't wind up buying anything, but it's always a neat place to look for unique gifts or treats! We finished the evening with supper at Kehde's.... PERFECT.

Sunday the choir sang, we had a potluck, and a voter's meeting, then attended the Sedalia Chorale concert in the afternoon. Delightful music as always! It was a busy, tiring day, and we were glad to relax in the evening with some Tour Chicken, wine & cheese, and of course, the BBC Pride and Prejudice.

Monday was an adventure day, although most of our planned adventures didn't work out as intended. We planned on visiting Bothwell Lodge, but it's only open for tours Fri-Sat apparently. Then we ventured down to Cole Camp, and all but two stores were closed there as well. So we drove to Lincoln for some tasty treats from Estes Drive- In, which was also closed. FAIL. On the way back, we attempted to stop at a few antique stores, which closed 3 minutes after we pulled into the parking lot. Thank goodness Calgaro's was open, because we had some delicious pizza for dinner. :) Knit Night was at the ever-lovely A's house, and I really enjoyed the relaxing ending to the otherwise hilariously frustrating day. None of the places we wanted to go were closed because of the holiday..... apparently places just like to be closed on Mondays. We finished out Monday with some games and severe storm warnings.... thankfully there weren't any tornados in our neck of the woods.... but seriously? Tornados in January?

Tuesday was spent in Columbia.... shopping for yarn and more yarn. :) We stopped at the other Dutch bulk food and bakery.... :) So many good things to get there. Two yarn stores, lunch, and the mall later, we made it home in time to go to the local pub downtown for dinner. Finishing up some knitting and Pride and Prejudice was a perfect end to the absolutely delightful weekend.

I've spent today finalizing details for the upcoming semester (next Monday! eek!) and cataloging my new yarn on Rav. It takes so little to make me happy. Oh, and my cataloging books came in the mail. Guess what I'll be doing tonight!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

It's been an interesting couple of days...

I pulled out my sewing machine the other day, but quickly remembered just how frustrated I get when sewing. For someone who tends to like details, I often get annoyed with all the little things and finishing touches on sewing projects. Today I'm determined to finish Green Skirt (just need to tack the yoke and hem it up, but then I think I'm putting away all the sewing for a different day.

And then we'll be back to knitting. I guess this has taught me knitting really is my first (and only?) craft love! Turns out I have so much more patience with knitting than any other craft.

In other news, I'm still waiting to hear about grad school stuff for next semester.... which starts in 10 days. So not happy about the lack of communication going on here..... I'm trying to remain patient and hopeful, but I'm getting really frustrated. And that makes me want to cry.

And since it snowed last night (finally!), even though most of it's melting off already, and we only got a dusting on the ground here, I just may pop over to the movie store and rent Girl with the Pearl Earring. I read the book a few years ago, couldn't put it down, and loved it. Maybe it's time to indulge in some Colin Firth love as well. Perhaps that will also help raise my spirits from this bizarre stir-craziness that's taken hold of me. :P

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Crafting Tuesday

Today I've had some huge accomplishments:
1.) I didn't get up at 11:30 like yesterday. No. I got up (read: out of bed, not just woke up) at 7:30. Amazing.
2.) I got all the dishes washed before 8:15 am.
3.) I caught up on email correspondence (ok... not that huge, since I try to keep up with that on a daily basis).

Then I decided today was a crafting sort of day. So I pulled out my two skirts which I cut out last year and learned how to operate my new (to me) sewing machine, and went to town. Except two problems: I don't have the correct colored zipper for Green Skirt, and don't have the right color thread for Orange Skirt. Nor do I have the right size pattern for hubby's pj pants. Hm. So far, I've gotten Green Skirt sewn together on the main seams. And I've got Orange Skirt pinned together.

The quilt! I've got a baby quilt I started years ago, which now will actually go toward a proper recipient... as long as I can find the missing two strips I need to bind it. That's it. I'm so close to finishing that quilt.... and here I am missing one part. Since I bought this fabric years ago, I doubt I'll be able to find the same color anywhere. Not to mention that Jo-Ann's is a good hour away. Guess it's time to dig through the fabric bags I've got stored in the ottomans.

But the baby blanket? I started the 3rd skein yesterday at Knit Night! THIRD SKEIN! I'm over half way finished! :)

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

One of those Days...

Today was just one of those days. Seemed like everything that could go wrong did go wrong... and I hate it when that happens. My poor husband had to deal with it when he came home for lunch, and I felt so awful about it. But things slowly got better as the afternoon went on.

It may sound silly, but I took some time while cataloging my Christmas presents in Rav (can you tell I'm a librarian at heart?!) to sit and pet my new alpaca yarn. :) It's soft. And it's pretty. And then it's even more soft. And those two things combined make yarn worth it in my book. :)

Since we got married earlier this year, I've been struggling with my weight. It's been a struggle for me over the past few years: first to learning how to love myself and my body, then accepting the fact that I was losing weight, and then enjoying my new self that felt (and looked) better. And then we got married and bam. Factor in the week of eating out on our honeymoon, eating others' cooking and portion sizes, moving to a new city, learning how to cook for two people's entirely different palates, eating out more often than what I was used to, full-time grad school, and the holiday season, and hellooooo pounds. :( I hate that despite my best efforts (sometimes, I'll admit that other times I just didn't care), the pounds came back. So today, instead of moping around about it and sitting on the couch, I went for a walk. Some two miles later, I was back at home, feeling somewhat better about myself. Hopefully I'll be able to keep this positive attitude up!

Bible Study tonight also helped lift my spirits. It's always amazing how God uses His word and some fellowship to help me regain some perspective. I'm really enjoying the topic we're studying, and learning how to better communicate my faith and theological training with those in our congregation.

And then I came home and made some tea. Thanks Megan for that idea. Honestly, I've got some of the greatest friends I could ever ask for. :) I love how we've all stayed in touch post-college and continue to support each other during the good and bad. What a huge blessing that's been to me, especially in the past few months of life changes.

So overall, I guess today didn't end as poorly as it began. :)

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Our Heroine's Thursday

It appears a common trend among bloggers to post reviews of their otherwise normal days. For lack of anything else to discuss that I haven't already, and because I felt as though I didn't get much accomplished today, I thought it might be good to prove otherwise to myself.

Our heroine began her Thursday a bit unusually. Needing the car for an appointment in the late morning, she actually woke before her husband and took him to work. Unlike last week, she had no stops to make on the way back home, and proceeded to busy herself upon arrival with the task of Organizing the Kitchen. After The Great Pumpkin Adventure 2011 last night (post forthcoming), there was still order to maintain. A breakfast of eggs and potatoes later, we find our heroine somewhat relaxing on the couch, combing through emails, checking class discussion boards, and catching up on the daily news.

Our heroine then visited the dentist (again) for a simple procedure (the first time dental work did not involve extractions!), and rewarded herself with some grocery shopping. A bottle of German wine (for Christmas!), cranberry white cheddar cheese, various meats, holiday baking necessities, and a Holiday Blooming Cactus later, she joined her husband for lunch and some good old fashioned Looney Tunes. The afternoon defined itself in an awesome $10 haircut, a few last grocery items, attempts at homework, and an indulgence in BOGO Starbucks Christmas drinks. Fortified with a delicious dinner of tortellini, salad, and breadsticks, along with the company of her good Italian husband :], our heroine settled in for an evening of more homeworking, knitting, and movies.

She looks forward to Thanksgiving break next week, The Great Pumpkin Baking Adventure 2011, finishing her knitting obligations on time, and the tasty vittles carefully stored away for Christmas.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

For better, for worse: Library Lessons

Working through my classes this semester, I've had some time (surprisingly) for introspection into my own thoughts and philosophy toward libraries. I've realized that, although not currently working in a library, I have definitely been shaped and influenced by those libraries in which I used to work. They've all been very different, and have each taught me lessons both good and bad.

First: A library is composed of two things: Information, and People. Without either, the library would cease to exist. You also can't ignore one or the other.

Second: Treating patrons with the simple courtesies and respect they deserve will get you far. At times, it may be difficult, especially with "those patrons." But extending a simple "hello" or smile as they enter the doors can go a long way in making the patrons feel comfortable in the library environment and also makes them more willing to let the librarians help them. Stop to greet someone you know as you're reshelving books. Make small talk at the front desk. Assure patrons they are neither interrupting you nor asking stupid questions. Put an emphasis on little things like these, and it'll make a huge difference.

Third: Office politics will happen. You have a choice: Keep it professional, or let it infect your staff. The results are drastically different. Differences of opinion are good and can be handled professionally. But if someone's not doing their job and you're asked to cover-- again? Fine. Bring it up with the management later. Word to the wise: no one wants to hear a string of expletives preface your help, not your employees, not your patrons.

Fourth: If you're going to hate your job, don't complain about it to your student workers. That's not professional, and it definitely deflates morale in a flash. It lowers your employees' opinion of you and makes it difficult for them to come to you when they have problems. It also makes your student workers complain more, both about their jobs and you.

Fifth: If you're going to have student workers, you must train them. Train them well, and TRUST THEM. Sure, you'll have a few along the years that disappoint and prove untrustworthy, but why would you not trust the student workers you interviewed, hired, and trained? Again, not being allowed to do the job for which you thought you were hired deflates morale quickly. I have worked in libraries where I was thoroughly trained. Awesome. I have also worked in libraries where I received haphazard training, and even where I received no training. Not cool, library "professionals," not cool.

Sixth: If you do trust your workers, it's a definite benefit to yourself, the library, and the workers. Having the privilege of working in at least one library where the administrative staff actually trusted the workers, I can say personally it was a huge boost of confidence to know that I was trusted with certain duties without being micromanaged every step of the way.

Seventh: Policies are good. Very good. They tell you what to do, and what not to do. But please, don't make the policies so incredibly convoluted that it actually prevents your employees from doing work they are certainly capable of if you'd only give them a chance. It's demeaning, it's frustrating, it's micromanaging, and... (confession time) it means some people still carry that chip on their shoulder. I left almost every shift at that library feeling like a useless employee and wondering why I was hired. On the bright side, this situation was an excellent reminder (one that I'll never be able to forget, honestly) of what not to do when holding an administrative position in a library.

The libraries which have formed good impressions on the library profession were such a blessing to work at. I enjoyed every day and the new challenges it would bring. Knowing that seemingly boring/meaningless tasks actually do have meaning brings a whole different sense of joy to both the jobs and the profession. It makes me excited to join these librarians as colleagues. And it means I will be forever thankful for the lessons they taught me about life and library science.

The library which has formed the majority of my bad impressions on libraries and the profession also came as a blessing. I doubt I would have seriously considered library science as a profession if I had worked there prior to settling on libsci as a career. But working there while knowing I would be attending library school the very next year gave me an insight which I truly appreciated. Seeing how this library treated its patrons, its employees, and its information taught me what not to do as a librarian. Perhaps even after these few years, I am still frustrated, mad, and hurt about my time there as an employee. It doesn't help that I find myself comparing their relevant services in my current courses this semester. But at the same time, I never forget those good lessons which it taught me as well. Perhaps this post did turn out more cathartic than intended.

But it's always good to look back and see just how far we've come.